Day 43

I feel like today is an important day because I've finally matched my last recorded attempt, and I'm showing no signs of turning back. Needless to say things are going pretty good with the wife. Not only have I been keeping my hand and eyes pure by not looking at porn, I've been trying my best to keep the purest mind, and I think I've been doing a lot better than I was when looking at porn. It's almost like a whole other world. I use to hate thinking about keeping "secrets," since I had a big one to hide. I thought of how embarrassing it would if some of my friends/family found out about my problem. I was paranoid about anyone getting on my computer. But all of that is gone. One week from today I will hit the middle of my goal, which I don't think I've ever done before. I don't know how long exactly my best attempt was since I looked at porn, but I'm pretty sure I'm getting close to beating that personal record if I haven't already. I am excited to hit day 100, even though it is still a ways off. I don't want to get ahead of myself though. I know things can still happen in the future, things I may not see coming, that may make things harder. I can't get cocky or proud or too sure of myself. I need to be humble and thank God that he has helped me get this far and pray that he helps me and others in my shows to continue through this difficult struggle.