Day 85

I haven't written in my blog in the longest gap now, and I feel kinda bad. I think the blog really kept me going in February, and while I am still going strong I have had a few days where I struggled a bit. Whether it was looking at scantily clad women or just googling pretty faces I felt like I was heading in the wrong direction in a journey that has taken me so far. I think this is the longest I've gone without porn in the past 5 years.

The other day my wife was surfing the internet on my computer and she asked if we still had the internet filter we had purchased about a year prior. I told her that it had expired a while ago. She asked if I still needed it, and I proudly responded no. I told her that I felt proud to not have to really on a program to not look at websites that I really don't need to. She was happy, I was happy, it was a nice moment. And now only 15 days away from day 100, I feel good about my journey. I've been doing my best to keep not only my actions but my thoughts pure. I want my convictions to be even higher than they have ever been. I can't let little things like looking at scandalous pictures slide anymore. Because it's not porn I sometimes think to myself, "hey, it won't really hurt." When in actuality it really does. Anyway, just know that I'm still here. I'm going to try to write more often in the closing 15 days of my long journey, and I'll definitely write something on May 5th, my 100th day without porn. Here's looking forward to it.

Day 71

I'm in my seventies now. Insane. Sorry I haven't been writing regularly. I was really keeping up well in February it seems, and didn't write much last month, and this is the first entry of this month. I'm still going strong though. I did have a bit of a struggle at one point last week: I was perusing the internet when I decided to go to the sports illustrated website. Not a good idea. I looked a few bikini clad women before I called it quits. I think the whole idea of sports illustrated is kinda silly now. haha. It seems like they have "the annual swimsuit issue" a few times a year now. Whatever. It was a minor stumble, but nothing that led to anything major. The though of looking or searching for naked women now is pretty far from me, which I am proud of. I don't wanna get cocky about it, but I think I've looked at less porn this year than I did in November of 2008, which is a huge step in the right direction. I still have about a month to go before I hit my goal, which leaves me wondering "what next?" Well I'm not sure. I think after I hit 100 days, I'll continue to write the occasional blog post, but I suppose the next major milestone would be an entire year without pornography. Sounds daunting, but I know it's not impossible. Anyways, if you are trying to quit or are thinking about trying to quit, just know that if I can do it then you certainly can. Also, to those wondering what game I was playing the past couple of weeks, it was the new pokemon. :P I hadn't played one in a while, and an old friend wanted to get it so we could battle. It felt like middle school all over again. I'm pretty much done with that game now though, and looking for a new one. Any suggestions?