Day 5

Well it looks like I am going to have a bit of trouble posting everyday. Weekends are hard as we are usually away from the house hanging out with friends and what-not, which is good. I don't enjoy being home alone for long periods of time. That's usually when I have the largest opportunity to look at porn. So hanging out is good.

Haven't really had any strong urges lately. I'm feeling good about this attempt. The only temptation I've had thus far is to google a few models. Every once in a while I'll see a video or an article that features a particularly beautiful woman, and my first reaction is to google said woman to find more pics. While not a really bad habit, that is usually how my porn searching ways start. I'll casually google a model who does not pose nude, then that leads to another model who might have more arousing photos, which leads to non-nude models who are practically nude anyway, which leads to full on porn. It's a vicious cycle, and if I cut it off at the beginning then I am less likely to fall into it. One thing I am thankfull for though is that I never really got into hardcore porn. I know porn is porn, but for some reason I could never watch the hardcore stuff for more than a few seconds before getting grossed out.

Well this week looks good. Work is going good for me, which keeps me busy, and I've been feeling kinda romantic with my wife, which is always nice. The more sex I have with her the better, as that is a) more gratifying than masturbation b) keeps my urges for porn down and c) the purest way to achieve sexual gratification. I don't know if that last sentence made a whole lot of sense. Anyhow, things are going good right now, so I am happy. Wednesday will be my first week without porn for this attempt, and hopefully it will be the first of many to come.